Cut Copy Paste

Today was a regular day. I woke up, did some laundry, straitened up a bit.

Then I hit the Gym, did a good Chest and Triceps.
The other night I was told I should write down my story about my life and transformation, from being who I was Physically, Emotionally, Spiritually and Maturity to who I am now. Proud to report
I am 60lbs lighter, I feel like I am able to stop being so judging towards people.
To open my eyes and see that its not always the world around me. Some times if not most of the times
it is me. You only get back what you put out into the world.

Oddly enough, I was told this exact same thing 2 days prior from some one completely unrelated.
So much in fact they don't even know each other. Both Told me I should write this down into a book
I think its something I am going to do.

 Should be done some time mid 2011, I hope.

Then after that I headed to Publix to venture out and try something new
in the vegetable world. I did Zucchini, and Butter Nut Squash.
I have never tried to cook Butter nut squash, So i figured it was in the same family as
the Zucchini, and squash, and pumpkin family.

I proceeded to saute in a garlic butter, lite amount, trying to keep my calorie count down for a couple weeks. So then I cover it and let the vegetables brown lightly before I flip them.
Then i started my short grain rice. I love short grain rice I think its so much nicer to eat than long grain.
 Now is the time to make the guacamole I love guacamole on rice its delicious.

So after all this magical food is on my place, I watch the new episode of the Simpson's.

WOW, BRAVO FOX! they are just pull out all the stops each year gets better and better. The Creative writers are phenomenal. Bart and Homer end up in Holland, Lisa in arts camp and they started to parody flight of the Concords. it was amazing for any one who has seen Flight of the Concords show will understand. Then Maggie is given a new pacifier and pulls out a cigar cutter clips the pacifier and places it her mouth as if it were a cigar. Brilliant.

So now onto Troy's to edit a video for camp promo. I had forgotten how much I had done at last camp in Fontana. All the lighting and sound I had to set up and run day to day with a band who couldnt agree on monitors. I was over worked and sleepless. Its what I do best.

This year Should be so much easier for me, Troy will not be stuck in the hospital with a deadly illness.
Lighting is all I will have to worry about. I am hoping that PRG has a Grand MA2 console available for me to grab. If not a Hog3 will suffice. But I would like to program on the Grand MA2 get some time with it really get into that system. I will have enough time to do this. Camp lighting is going to be epic this year.

Moving on, I chopped up the camp video I had made to make the promo, and wow. I think the 2nd product was better than the original We used a band called the Fernets. I will post the video later tomorrow.

Then tonight I watched The Saint, good movie, but the way I set up my surround sound was the kicker. its epic. im completely enveloped in sound and its not even loud. I may regain my hearing.

So now I end the night at 530am with my blog.

Well time to sleep.

as always,

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

No Shirt, No Shoe's no real title.

Today,

Well Today when I woke up, Cousin Darcy and her husband John Billy Bob  Dalton were there, I had not seen Darcy in I believe 11 years. Today finally meetings her husband of 4 years. He was cool to meet.
I really enjoyed another full family day with Aunt Renee, Lorain, Grand Ma Dear., Uncles Glen and Frank and cousins Tina Kristy, Dawn, Frank, Glen and Naomi, and little ones Evan, Cameron, Jaiden.


I missed having the camera today. But Dawn and all her wonderfulness Setup her Camera to take a family photo. SO some account of a visit is had. 

Its great reconnecting with my family again and actually liking it. Not feeling so afraid to be me.
I missed Aunt Denise today.

Then after " Brunch " I headed off to the gym for a painful day thanks to troy. But hey I am 60lbs lighter than I was last year because of him. So i owe my over all new found health to him. I still want to go another 10lbs more but I will gain back muscle weight so it will balance out.


So after the gym I arrive back home in time to see grandma dear off. I love that crazy old woman.

Now I am in posession of the 5D again, Tomorrow breakfast will be the photo Op for tomorrow.
I still am learning all the functions on this amazing piece of hardware.

So to set the scene, I go outside and set up some clay pots to play with the 50mm 1.4/f
And I am laying on the floor to get eye level shot and Aunt Renee See's just a body on the walk way and comes out and proclaims, " WHAT ARE YOU DOING! " and then laughed, I said its best not to question what I do, it wont make any sense.

Then the Loforte Family and the Dalton's and I ate pizza and watch Princess Bride. Its a timeless classic comedy that never gets old.

So the night now winds down to me telling my story for the day.
NO out look for the day, just chill. Everything about today was relaxed.
Including gym time, Endorphins are a powerful thing. Plus I always feel good
after leaving the gym.

So as a good day with nothing bad to report. Cant ask for anything better.
Tomorrow will be the photo day!

As always,

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

Rip off the movers

So today was interesting. I got up and got a replacement order for my phone.
Then the day started with Troy and I moving Bedroom furniture. So the set is sold from his house, because there is another bedroom set replacing it.

So the woman only wants to give half before the deliver because Quote: " I don't want you driving off to Hialeah with my stuff. "

So after we arrive and take the furniture up stairs and put in place she then wants to nitpick about a mattress pad and that we delivered broke furniture, she wasn't going to pay. So after a few moments of heated argument and things being settled we left.

Then to go move the other bedroom set to the house. smooth sailing after that.

So now fast forward a few hours I am back at troys to watch the Critically Tosh.0 acclaimed worst movie ever made. The Human Centipede. but the way Tosh.0 described the movie you have no choice but to watch it.

So I obtain the movie and we sit down to watch it, laughing while remembering the description and it was completely accurate. The movie turned from a horror / sci fi flick to a Horror / Comedy. Now I'm sure Tosh.0 gave this move way more credibility than it ever deserved but wow.

This is definitely the best worst movie ever made. its just simply stupid.

So now i am Home at 1:56 am posting my blog, tomorrow and friday are gig days, ill post more after that.


as always

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

Night of ease

Greetings, For the past 2 days there has not been much to report.
I am just making up for lost gym time, enjoying some time to myself,
laying back, watching movies, gone riding in the recent beautiful weather.

A nice driver alerted me that my Tail light was out, I am glad to be informed
My Truck also has a signal light out so it will be a day of light replacement.

Ive been writing more music, one of these days I will record them and possibly publish it.

I have developed a style I hope is my own. Its completely different from what I normally listen too.

Work coming up Thursday and Friday. I am excited, I love working.

Also saturday my cousin who I have not seen since I cant remember when will be here with her husband.

Then that Saturday at night I will be starting a new project hopefully this will take off.

The next Few months will be full of planning and gathering. January 11, 2011 this will take off. CANT WAIT!

So that is all I have to report.

As always

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

40th and Church Hill

Tonight was a fun night, It was the big bosses 40th birthday celebration.
most of the beach sound crew was there, always a pleasure to see them.
Some of us spoke about how we all mesh well. its pretty cool to be considered
part of this company family.

The jam session there tonight was amazing, hearing the last minute band
play a walk in song for Andre was awesome how quick it pulled together.
Then Andre's band played, the awesome sound of punk that emerged was
a sound i had not heard live in a while. I miss the age 16 year where green day,
mxpx, were top of my things to listen to.

The music phases i have gone through over the years from 16 till 25 are polar opposites but i still
enjoy hearing stuff from the past. Its a good time to travel back in my head and remember those days.
Stone Temple Pilots when i was 20 discovered late yes, but a great part of me being 20.
STP was on every CD i burned and was what I listen to every day.

Maybe ill do a whole different section for my 16 to 25 age play list.

back to Church Hills, Joey played an origional song just his bass and his voice,.
Shocked a lot of people, it was nothing short of amazing. I hope to hear more of his music soon.

The night ended with Steph, Rafa, Chris and I talking in the parking lot, sharing a ton of laughs.
Its great to enjoy the company of your co workers outside of the professional world and
actually like who they are aside from the common interest of what our careers are.


So then the night ends with me at home, Good laughs, great people, a good game of billiards with Mike Korey, that guy makes me laugh so hard with his enthusiasm for life.

I look forward to getting the picture of this evening i know i did a few stupid poses. Ill share them with you later.

Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease.

It just sounds the same.

So to was a work day, I worked at Sunlife Stadium, its hard to keep up with what the stadium is called these days. It was Land Shark not long ago, then it is now Sunlife Stadium.

The day begins with the techs who show up on time tired of waiting for stage hands, So we do the work ourselves. We unloaded the Truck and then the stage hand show up, we get them in on the heavy stuff then, they get to push the 2000lbs platform back over to the staging area. goodness on wheels.

So we set up and the band does not show up for sound check. so we leave and my day consisted of a meeting for the new thing thats going to happen.

Then hanging out with Troy, and Joe odd combo. but happens.

So then Its now time for me to get back to work so head off and I was going to stop for food until I noticed my gas was low so I had to take care of that.

Now to show call.

I arrive at Sunlife Stadium to hear a massive clanging sound just constantly going.
After getting inside they had handed out 10,000 Cow Bells and Mini Drum stick to go with it.

I have never heard so many latins out of time with everything in such a large scale before. It gave me a head ache.

Tonight's featured act is a Salsa band, Now I am not one to judge culture, BUT!!!! Salsa is the same thing over and over again. 

The act went on for 1 hour and 25 minutes. give or take a few minutes.
I was at the end banging my head on the spot light, the guy did not move at all.
he danced in the same small circular motion the whole time.  I believe I was banging
my head off time with the band and the 10,000 cow bells.

Every one was a toys player tonight. Im not sure what mess of tempo's went on durring the show, but the off time from everything people with cowbells.

I know Christopher Walken made the cow bell famous but this was over kill...
there is only cure for my sickness and its to make the cow bell stop.


after The show ended. We quickly packed up our gear and headed out.

tonight is a good night, i worked tonight. I really do enjoy my co workers they bring a certain humor to the table that is not often found.

So all that being said, it was a day of salsa and i think ill pass on the chips tomorrow.

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

Beached Thai

Well today was a slow paced day, I hoped on the Harley this morning and went to the Commercial pier.
Enjoyed a couple hours there just doing nothing at all. I got rained on as I arrived to the beach for about 2 minutes. I later dried off in the sun. These are the hazards of being a motorcyclist.

I then went home and got ready to meet up with good friends for dinner.
One's not seen to often but go back so long the connection doesnt skip a beat.
We all were talking about our days of carefree times and now that we are all grown up and
pursing something for ourselves we dont have as much times to enjoy each other as we use to.

So on nights like this we seize the opportunity to get together and share a few laughs and
stories

Friday nights use to consist of getting together at our restaurant we all some how agreed on.
through a system of phone calls then, no text yet. we would all end up meeting up at a central location.

We would talk about our week and the things that would matter to us at that point.
We would dream of the future and working on getting our professional lives in order
and were we would all be at this point in our lives and we have all achieved our goals
or are on the way to them.

Its amazing to see the transformation from 7, 5 even 1 year ago how things were.
We thought we were on top of the world.

But as we grew with each other we all stayed focused on one particular goal in life.
Its nice to say that I had a dream and went after it.
How many people can say that.


I remember I would always take the chance to listen to some one talk about what made them Happy.
Usually people will talk more and get animated when they talk about their passion.
Its a wonderful transformation of character in a person when they speak with passion.

I often now tend to speak with this passion for life. Introducing myself back into the world has been a great experience, I spent so much time closed off from the world that i did not know how amazing it is.

A wise person really gave me the opportunity to capture these things in ways i would always dream of doing but never saw it before. Simple phrase " Nothing is unobtainable"

Cant say that its the key to all of it, but i can say it was helpful.

Back to old friends, Its amazing how we all grew up in the same style of situation just differnt venue.
we can all connect and understand on a deeper level than if we were to talk to others about it who have
no experience.  Its funny how we all ended up in the same places all around the same times with everything in our lives.

We all need to have a close group of friends who love and care for you, and
with this system of love, you can accomplish anything, The human core is based off of love,
you take love out of the equation in any ones life, it destroys their will. Their very essence of life and what matters.

It is very nice to say that i have Love all around me. From old friends, new found family and people you feel comfortable enough to let it all go. Thanks to all of you.

Its nice to be loved.


So as i close this out, Remember to fight for what you love, and Love it even more when you have it. Nothing is for sure so treasure everything and Love on as many people as you can. It will make a difference.


Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

Wine Food and What did they just play

Today was a collective night of fine wines and food from local restaurants in the Ft Lauderdale area.
Some of my favorites were from 3030 Ocean their Potato Leak soup with Rock shrimp and Curry Oil was heaven in a cup. simply amazing. Then after that a nice assorted sweets from the melting pot.

Other than 3030 ocean i was not over impressed, it was a lot of bar and grill places. Although there is a bbq joint in coral springs. Their slogan is Where BBQ meets metal. Reminds me of Kumas in Chitown.
Which I will soon be visiting. WOOT WOOT!!

Other than good conversations, lovely sights, and good food and wines it was an eventful night.
Great change of pace other than the norm, made momentary friendly connections from the parking lot battle to the quick passing and smiles from random strangers who seem to warm up the night a little at a time.

Its great to live among such culture. Next week will bring new experiences all to be documented.
There will be a hold on photos, the 5D is back with David for a few days. After the return this will
be once again my photo blog and more experiences will be had.

well this is where we sign off and say.

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

Not much to report

The only thing i have to report is work is flowing in, just install type stuff. its good times.
I Get to enjoy conversation and interaction rather than pondering the mysteries of how did the link trap get emptied. These are the vague thoughts as I wake up on my days off. Not always lint some times, Oh boy i have to pee.

So this is about all i have to report at this time.

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

nothingness of creation

The day started with me waking up and going through my photos from the night before, really absorbing them. noticing the detail.
No photos today, not a very photo oriented day.



Then i met up with Troy, I have a feeling your going to hear a lot about him in here.
We sat down together to brain storm and idea, we have a solid plat form.
Based off of Matthew 18:20 " For where two or three gather together as my followers,^h I am there among them.”

Basically doing a weekly ministry that is based solely online. We will how ever be doing live events around south Florida to add a something of physical substance to this. 


I dont want to say to much, but its going to be very interactive, will give more update on that later. 


After this we went to the gym, typical day. 


Aunt Renee Cooked a good dinner, ill do  a food review why not. 
Chicken Baked with seasoning, not sure what but it worked. Green beans my favorite of the 
standard table veggies, baked potato and the ever so wonderful fungi, Baby Bella Mushrooms. 
Its a winning combo.


I then enjoyed a poker game with my life long neighbor Malcolm. and 2 others. 
I lost but it was on credit we called it. more of a friendly game so to speak. But I will put in my 5 for next time. 


I did discover a new band, Session Zero, its an unsigned melodic rock band, I am very intrigued with this. I want to be apart of this in an aspect, recording a producing. He is trying to reform. I want to help. 


Networking is a huge part of this industry and I am glad I have developed the necessary skills to do so. 
Reputation has its benefits. 


Today's particular mix consisted of Guster, Minus the Bear, and Starflyer 59. Plus 3 tracks from Sessions Zero. 


I only listen to 3, so that I can really want to absorb what he is about and run with it. 


I also had a realization that i had put labels on people for so long from the first glimpse. It was very easy for me to easily say, Naw i dont like the way that person carries themselves, I dont want to talk to them. I dont like that you are into video games, we really have nothing to speak about so i will be vague with you when you try to be overly social to gain my attention. 


I spent a couple of hours with some one who i had dismissed reluctant I wanted to see some one else knowing this person was around. So I decided to go and just talked and listen. We really dont have much in common but i took the tag off. 

I constantly forget to push the shift key when placing my " i " as a possessive, I would allow auto correct on Office to fix my errors. This blog does no such thing. 

I feel my grammatical skills will increase as I am ever reminded of them. 


I wish to better myself, i never had the attention span in school long enough to absorb things. People like to label it as Add, or Adhd. well i was bored. I can concentrate for long periods of time if I am stimulated. 


I did learn a lot of complex things on my own and through others. I did very well when taught interactively, very much so the example of my 3rd year of elevator school. Video, Scale Models, hands on interaction, I passed that class with flying colors. 


I find challenges that i like to over come and fix I feel if I can solve it, I have taken on a good Challenge. The problem is I try to fix myself over time, think one thing is going to work, but like a old car your duct tape radiator hose is only going to hold on for so long. So you look for something else to fix your flaw. 


If I can fix something tangible, I feel accomplished. If I fix my imperfections I feel broken. 
I am proud to say that I am not bruised I am broken. Now is my time to see where the pieces fit back together and make them as fit as best as possible. Now I would like to stand back and say, I am flawed and full of life. Then run strait at it and tackle everything I possibly can. 




A lot of times, my mind is exactly like this blog, All over the place. 
Some times i have to read back over the blog to see what I have put down because 
just as quickly as one thought moves in, it is pushed back my 15 other ones. 


Its great to have things in section to recall, the brain is truly amazing, how much information 
you can process at any given time. 


I find that when i have close social interaction with the person that I am working with, things come out better. My mind is more stimulated and energy flows freely. 


Tonight's movie of choice was a movie brought to my attention from some one I work with. 
This Emotional Life gives you an insight on human emotions and attachments. The basic instinct for love is needed even in the most basic of creatures. 

They said "if love is taken away from something its world will shut down. " 
this creature will no longer have the will to live. 
How love is the essence of true happiness. Humans need love to feel happy.
Communication, Social Awkwardness, Facing your social fears. 


It just put a lot into perspective. definite must watch documentary. 


well its now 3:13 am, I am up this late because my schedule is ever changing and lets face it I am a night person. 


Also the Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease, I always start off backwards with Peace, Love an....

I stop there. and correct it to. 


Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

Family Day.

Today was family day as it is every sunday, its been a odd transition between being closed off to the idea to embracing it and actually enjoying myself, I find shelter behind a lens it seems. I am O.K. with it, at least i get to enjoy the atmosphere. Plus it makes people happy to know ill be able to relive that moment forever.

Plus how can you not enjoy things like this.
" Aunt Renee : Is no body going to address the issue with the child eating the chalk?"
" Tina: Its my third child. Eh." Thank goodness for non toxic chalk, guess it taste good to him...

 Jaiden He is 1. i think the picture explains him to a T.

Evan The oldest who is going to be 5 in the near future. 
He is a handful of joy, he is naturally at ease in front of the camera. Any chance for this kid to cheese, even when he is crying and upset.

Cameron ( I hope i spelled this right Aunt Renee?? ) He is 2. This is Tina trying to be firm but is on the border of laughter with this kid, how can you be serious around a 2 year old?









Today I was told my brother had deleted people off of face book, I made the cut. I have a haunting suspicion as to who is behind this. I can only pray that things will get better and that people find the help they so desperately need.


Today was also a learning day for the canon 5D, yes I broke out the manual and discovered a whole world that I never knew existed. The Detailed White Balances, The aperture settings, ISO rates its does up to 6400 REALLY!!, plus Hi1 and 2.
Will shoot HD video full 1080p its amazing. I really should take advantage of this.

I am getting an understanding of the equipment so hopefully in the near future i will be able to produce some amazing photos so every one can see what I see. Its a beautiful world and I want to absorb it all.

Here is the Link for the day. THE BOYS

Day of Lighting a Crystal Castle

HELLO!

September 11th was spent at the always fun Grand Central Miami a band called Crystal Castles performed.

Best i can describe was a Metal Techno, The light show was very enticing, I got to check out the new Grand MA 2 Full size..  I have to say better than the GMA 1 and the built in motors for the screens is a cool feature. but just the effects this board has built in and everything it can do is quite amazing.

So as the night started at 10:45pm the doors opened people started to flood in for the show that started at 12:50am no one really had a concrete start time. never happens.

So the venue is over capacity, The A/C that usually freezes you could not hold out for the crowd. The show started very dark, and ominous.

then the lights brighter than the sun at point blank range kicked on and the show started.
More photos HERE.

after the show ended, front of house was not prepared with an Ipod so house was dead for about 10 min. The FoH engineer is freaking out on me, WHERE IS THE MUSIC!! I then reminded him it was not my job to provide him with music i am the lighting guy.

After the night ended the club smelled of an eventful night. the mixture of Fog and Cigarettes made for club night well spent. The band cleared out after they were done they don't like to mingle but the exit they made was interesting, Co2 fire extinguishers Cooled the club down a little bit.

my evening ended at 4am, i stuck around and chatted for a bit, got home around 530. There is actually traffic from the downtown in the morning.

So now onto a day of recovery. Relaxing, and hopefully some good company later on.

Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease.

You have the right to a TKO

Tonight was a night of boxing.
The Police Athletic League, did Fire Fighters and Police Boxing.
30 contenders faced off in 15 3 minute rounds.

It was a basic Rig set up for boxing, Nothing exciting.
I did not bring my camera today as my truck was packed to the brim
with gear from the gig the night before.

My new tattoo hurt like hell today. stupid me forgot my tattoo ointment.
Well i soaked it in when i got home. it seems to be healing properly.
it is day 2 and bright as can be i enjoy the fresh new look of a tattoo.

After having found out preproduction had not be done to its full extent,
we found out the DVD Player would not suffice, so i spoke up for using my laptop to run the video content and contender Intro Video's.

I obtained my new VGA Adapter which will be used at grand central tomorrow night. Crystal Castles tomorrow night.

I got an unexpected return on a email i sent. I say unexpected because of who it was too.
I got a pleasant yet vague response, i think it was the last stitch that i had to pull to end the wound. it healed i just kept on to one reminder that was unsightly to me.

I have a mix of emotions tonight, first was hurry, damn it i was late for work... GRRRR i thought i had woken up from the alarm but it was a dream. Odd..

then after getting to work and getting settled in with the day it was smooth. I enjoyed a good mix of music from FOH, was apart of an interview with Mobile Mike * Sarcastic Woohoo* downloaded some good music.

Night ended with the load out over an hour late. Its fine, i dont care how long it runs i love the job.

i felt a little slower because i had not slept the night prior, my head never stops.

So here i am now blogging, I got my Wii Disc for Netflix today. So i am celebrating with a movie. have not decided yet. will share tomorrow.

So there is my story for the day. day 3 of my blog. Lets see how this turns out.

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

Lighting and Tattoo's

Hey, Today was an interesting day, I got up and got ready for the gym this morning.
Worked out Shoulders and Traps, Shoulders months ago use to kill me, i had a sharp pain that would almost cripple my left shoulder for a day. Now that i have built it up, its great i can life 5 times what i use to. I am officially 55lbs less than i was this time last year. I feel this is a great transformation in life and a great start.

I took advantage of my work tonight, i was at hard rock programming the new install lighting at hard rock paradise. So Troy and Michele met up with me there, we had hopes for David. yet not so much.

Michele and I decided on a whim to get new tattoo's I am very happy with my choice. It was some flash art in a book. but it just describes me very well, and is placed so very well.

Just shows my mischevious side. and is hidden but can come out at any time.

There is another tattoo i am working on, i think it will be well worth it, I like the artist at Tattoo Inc at hardrock. great little open shop, clean atmosphere, but still open and welcoming.

The Artist Jeff gave just great detail to the piece, i have 7 other tattoos that i watched and this guy just saw every little bit of that tattoo and put it on my leg and i honestly feel he added more detail and some other coloring that is not part of the flash art.

I dont think i have had a bad experience with tattooing yet. they have all been fun, and i enjoy tattooing with friends around.

Tomorrow I am back at Hardrock Live for the Police VS Firefighter Boxing. Should be fun I hear the fire Fighters beat the cops hands down but we will see.. Women Fire Fighter and Woman cop maybe??? I could only hope.

any ways this was my day. Thanks for listening.
Oh there may be a new development coming up. Online.

Any ways More details as it evolves i am very excited.

Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease.

The Start

Hey, I am not much of a writer, but i like to talk so i can do that.

bare with my format its going to be a bumpy ride.

I want to share with as many people as i can my world.

I have had some time recently to really look at my life and start seeing things from a different perspective. I choose to believe there is something good out there waiting to happen.

I have had a few helping hands a long the way who have really took the time to
help me through a lot of my journey.

I am Kyle Theed, I am 25 years old and a former procrastinator in life.
Recently reborn into the beauty of the world by simply getting out.
not allowing my self to sit around and wait for the world to come to me. I will go out to it.

I recently rediscovered the beach this summer, even though i burn the second i am introduced to the sun. SPF 80 barely cuts it for me. There is pain in life i think i can handle this one.

Today I woke up in beautiful fort lauderdale,

From Blogger Pictures

my cousin is house sitting at " The Beach House.
Its one block from the ocean and has the most amazing hard wood floors. Its what i want my house to be, full of windows and hard wood floors. some where to the east.

Over the last year i have been fighting depression, I have had my nights where i lashed out at those who loved me, and told off those who tried to help me.
Its very hard for some one to stay around and look past the hurt you put out.

But those people are beautiful,

From Blogger Pictures

and usually not noticed around most because they tend to stay in the back, and no matter how much you push them away they are still going to wait for you when you are in need of them. with out judgment or anger.

I have found through all of this that life didnt stop when i did, it kept going on so now i need to catch up with the pace again, I recently took out my camera again and started seeing the world for the beauty it has to offer and ignored everything i made to be bad.

I would like to share some of the things i have done over the last year and collectively over the last 4 years of my life.

this is the start, hopefully once i get the hang of this, i will be able to do a better format... Check out the Beach House set some of it is blurry i didnt have a trip pod at 2 am. but most of these were shot on automatic with the Canon 5D. http://flickr.com/gp/53765122@N03/8BTj63