Angry, Sleepy, Doppy, Grumpy

Today is an Angry day, Why in particular, I cant tell you, because well I just dont know.

Some days I will wake up fine, others wanting to launch a nuclear war on those who speak to me.

Nothing happened to set me off, but when I get into that mind set everything I can possibly think back on that has really been significant that has made me angry boils right back to the top again .

Its some times hard to be in my head, I hear logic and Reason v.s. Impulse and Stupidity. most of the time the impulse and stupidity win over logic and reason.
The hard part is, knowing exactly the measures I need to take but completely ignoring them.

I want to feel human and not suppressed. I feel that suppressing myself keeps tension low amongst others, but really eats away at me.

The last 18 months have been a test of Reason and stupidity.
I cant explain my actions, I dont understand them myself.

I can only hope something is still holding on at the end when I figure this out.
I think ill need a hand up.

Only so far you can go

Gonna do the best I can being me,
I wont hold back what I feel, ill tell you
when Ive had it, or when I just need you there.

You cant understand the change,
its been hard for me too, but the change
was in me, and with out you.

We both went on, some quicker
than others, but I know I tried.
My part, my role, my love all in the past.
Dead on a whim.

I will rebuild, I will be stronger,
Better yet I will be better.
You will know it when I am there.

I only have forward to go,
to the future and beyond.
Ill be standing there,
even after you have moved on.

Where I stand is not a cry for you,
but a monument of who could still stand tall.
I am not broken, I am bruised.

You haven't broken me yet!

Just has to happen

Its been a few days, Things have been crazy, I went to Las Vegas for the first time, accepted an award on behalf of the company. Went to the coolest convention I have ever been to. met some really cool people along the way. Then reality kicked in.

We are back from Vegas, the party stops, the work begins.
I can say that I was ready to come back and get to work again.
Spending time on shows and now in the shop.

I need to get use to a schedule again, but tomorrow is a show day. Lauren Hill at UM.
It is a set up and hand over gig so I can kick back and just enjoy it.

There is a Huge show we have been prepping for a few days, Miguel Bose from Spain.
Will be at the Knight Center in Miami, and Beach Sound is the lighting support for this show. Its is going to be a visually stunning show from what I have seen on youtube. The video content alone is enough to make you say wow.

Season is in full swing, cant wait to see what is coming.

I will keep you posted.

as always

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.

Been a busy time

Greetings,

It has been a while since my last input to this blog.

To catch you up. I have worked some interesting shows lately,

Think Pink rocks for one, it was a hip hop contest for the Tata's.
In Boca, I knew I would be ok when i saw the security was a gang of 15 year old white boys.

However, the highlight of the weekend was working a small private concert starting Rod Stewart.
Was a really nice intimate setting.

The show was low key and the setup was nice, very basic lighting but still packed a punch.

Onto the big stuff,

I GOT A FREAKIN' FULL TIME JOB WOOOOOHOOOO!!!!
Beach Sound Inc. hired me on october 12th beach sound called me up and hired me on full time.
I could not say now. an opportunity of a life time comes along and I jumped on it.

There was an emotion I could not convey so I jumped around screaming like a maniac after I hung up the phone.

This is the begining of my accent into greatness. I cant wait for the journey over the next few years and see where Beach Sound is going to go.

I am so excited!

any ways. That is all for now Pictures of Rod Stewart to come.

IM Ready for my close up Mr. Deville

Today OHHH BOY TODAY!!!

Today I had been assigned to shoot a commercial for a business.
Me, I've never shot a commercial before for something serious.

Turns out the producer of this commercial is no Joke.
I was under the impression he was started out. NO he is just starting a NEW business.
On his own.

Miss communication.

So I get out there and set up.

We have to take several times 1. Because of the actor. 2. Wind noise and over passing planes. 3. Car, Car, Motorcycle, Buss, Old man on bicycle. I should make a blooper reel of this.

This isnt really even the highlight of the day.

now to the Pumpkin Pie.

I had received my first shipment of these veggies and fruits from this place. www.Anniesbuyingclub.com
Its organic at fair market value, and sorted for you, takes the guess work out of shopping and also gives you a chance to explore things you would never think of buying to eat.

SO I had received a Pie Pumpkin. Immediately I am looking up a recipe on how to make a pie from scratch.

So I start by disemobowling the pumpkin to which both Franks said, Do you know what your doing? both at separate times. To which i respond, No.

Now the pies are all ready to go into the oven. I am all excited this is my first home made pie!

Now, I am a pumpkin pie conisur and Key lime pie as well my next try.
And I have had some really good home made pumpkin pie in the mountains. and in various other places around this country, I have had good pie. And this one is right up there with them.

1 pumpkin had enough for 2 pies. I had 2 pumpkins. I cooked them both not knowing what they would yield next time I will know, so the spare pie filling is in the freezer for a later date.

I cant wait, I think im going to make a pumpkin wip cream out of the next ones.
but this time will just be regular home made wip cream.

I love to cook, I am glad im getting back into the habit of it.

I was once told and I am kicking myself for actually repeating this person.

"If you dont makes things special here and there, nothing will be special." this in only a partial quote.

This was brought on over a certain occasion in the past.
But back then I had a much more tainted view on things unlike now.

It didnt make much sense back then, But I get it now. Glad sonner than later.

any ways, that was the highlight of my day.

now to relax before bed. I have a private concert to do tomorrow and sunday for Rod Stewart. And Sunday is think pink for breast cancer awareness, SO i get to do lighting for such artist as 50 Cent, Shontel, Flo Rida. and a few others.

Should be fun. I cant wait, Packed weekend. its my life and I love it.

Thats all for now, Pictures to come after the weekend.

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease

The whole picture.

Today to start off with was a mellow day, I got up hung around for a bit, went to the gym and then had an idea of telling how my photos went, this blog was created for this.

So here it goes.

The boys arrive,


It seems the took to this new center piece
that frank had brought home from work.


Frank is the angry wizard of the board giving instruction.

and of course the first thing a child does it place it in their mouth.



so this goes on and on and of course how can you resist the Canon 5D with a combo of the Boys.
So I stuck around and of course they cant do anything with out fighting.



But then this little one made an appearance



and he just steals the show, until he runs away.

So then Moving on i just found some good ones of Evan to start off with.




This one i left a little out of focus you will understand





The boys always end up being kind to each other as well.



I left this one a little bigger
Its just speaks so much to how much joy there are in kids just out of the simple
act of kindness they want to share with you.





Now the kid feels as if he is super man with the cape blow in the wind as if he were to take off.


This is Tina telling me what cameron does to his sandwiches if he is not watched the whole time.



He is a handful this was him as we were trying to get him to eat dinner.


also after dinner he kept on with the same.



But he is glowing so he must be some what good... Right?

So then a ninja turtle shows up to the party



he waits in the distance to strike the unknowing.


To only take over the SANDBOX, when did sandboxes become unsafe?



Lets just say something heroic happened and we are now minus a child


Oh wait there he is.


He saw trouble and Ran. Then got distracted by a bowl of water.
Trouble these days when fleeing so many distractions






Im pretty sure this one is the heroic doing, He looks tough.



But he is deceiving, at times.



So this was the journey of the boys. More to come later.

Where to begin

So it has been a very busy last few days.

So Wednesday I did lighting for the Temptations, and Assisted with The Spinners.
Thursday, I helped Troy clean out his condo, his former tenants left it a mess.
Friday, I go to beach sound and talk about a project I am suppose to start soon if given the OK.
Then I moved a Piano, Odd job but I took it. Not fun my back hurts a little still.

Headed back home, I see a accident on the turnpike and SW 8th. There was a Single car involved.
Driver not wearing their seat belt and was ejected from the car and presumed dead because when i saw this the body was covered with the yellow sheet.

Its sad, people really need to remember seat belts and stop texting while driving, and put down the cell phone. Life is too precious to loose so senselessly. BE CAREFUL!

Then I decided. I have nothing to do for a few days so I headed up to Jupiter to spend time with my cousin Robin. just enjoy doing nothing. Relax, Laugh, watch a movie.

Now today. just a basic day. got up late, had a late breakfast. Explored palm beach, Then later we had dinner together to which i departed shortly after to meet up with Troy and David for a fun night of yelling over the beatles cover band.

then we went next door of the pub to smoke a cigar. we then were met by Danny and Elena, we spoke out side elena didnt want to go inside I dont blame her.

Its been an easy weekend, I like it.

Thats all I have really. I have more photos I will add with tomorrows blog entry.

As always,

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.